Why I Don't Blog As Much Anymore...
You've probably seen this post coming. Why I don't blog as much anymore has really broken my heart, but I still am loving all my readers and followers! It's so inspiring to become a blogger... to read that first comment, to realize someone's actually reading what you have to say, to be tagged on other blogs. It's hard to not blog as much as I used to, and you're probably wondering what on earth happened to me! 😐 💔
First of all, I turned 13 in November which was a huge change for me- both emotionally and spiritually. Becoming a teenager and leaving my childhood (okay, not all of it, but some of it) behind was hard yet also easy, because I felt like I had already been there. I had already given it up... yet, I hadn't as well.
My readers saw a lot of changes in me and a lot more in-depth posts. Words came flowing out of me that I didn't know I had. It's hard to explain what happened, but I kind of gave up my blogging. Partly because my grandfather died. It took me over a month to stop grieving, though I was pleased that I never let go of Jesus in those hard, sorrowful moments. 💛 The whole time I grieved, this thought ran through my head, which was, "We knew this day was coming- but we didn't know how soon!"
It was the hardest loss I'd ever gone through.
I was so blessed to have friends and family (and my readers!!) at my side during this time, to encourage me and hold my hand as I got back up, and fell again. It was hard to blog because I didn't feel inspired. I was not my usual self.
My readers probably noticed I didn't post as often. I think this was also because I didn't pick up my camera as often and there wasn't much TO photograph in the cold wintery months.
The #1 thing I learned as a blogger was to never apologize for not blogging. People understand that you're busy. I know that seems cold and unloving, but it gets very annoying for people to hear from bloggers, "Sorry! I know I haven't blogged in a few days but I've been busy!"
So I simply wrote post and hoped my readers were still there. It's amazing to hear from you guys and to realize that you love me and love my blog. Three years ago, if you asked me if I thought I'd be blogging at this point in my life, I probably would've laughed and said, "No, I'd prefer to write or draw!"
But here I am. Three years later, writing a post like this. I feel bad that I haven't posted in a while and that I don't post as much as I used to. I've become a better person at writing longer posts and it amazed me that on my latest survey, (results coming soon!) you guys want to see my everyday life + pictures more!
I know this post is late- I almost wish I'd posted this on January 1st. I know I said in my original New Year's Resolution's post I wanted to blog more, but I also want to focus on my readers more. I don't want to be trapped down and not get to blogging. I want to leave the busyness and focus on blogging. I want to write and be happy when other people like it. 💙
So why don't I post as much anymore?
- I'm busy with harder school levels, musicals, and my social life.
- I was grieving for over a month and didn't feel inspired 💔
- The wintery, cold months had me down
- There was nothing to photograph- not really my usual 'spring portraits' and 'walks in the woods' 😝
These reasons I cringe at, but I realize I should really focus on three things this year: #1: Jesus and my Church life. #2: My blogging + readers #3: Myself- I get so caught up in my life I neglect myself and grow agitated 😕
The result of this post? I'm going to become a blog boss this year and try and never let you guys down. I want to blog more, listen to my readers, and become one of those awesome bloggers! So, fingers crossed, you'll see more of me! 😁
Thank you to my readers for being there for me. I love you guys!!!! 💜
P.S. If you'd like to see more of me, you can follow me here on Instagram, or follow along here on the other blog I run!